Monday, June 18, 2012

Here we go!

My friends, the rumors are true! I am pregnant with a sweet little person! It's still very early, only about 4 1/2 weeks. I wanted to share some of my thoughts on why we've told everyone so soon, being pregnant after a miscarriage, ect. So, here goes.

Yes, I took all these tests! It was a 3 pack, so might as well take them all! 

First of all, I am extremely excited! A new baby? Yes, please! When the Hubs and I found out last week we were both sort of in shock. It's been a year and a half since my miscarriage and a little over a year since we started trying again. So, after 13 months of not getting pregnant, a positive test was a little different! Great news, but out of the ordinary! I knew that I could have children and in the past it had been so easy to conceive. That lead me to believe that God just wanted us to wait. I'm still not sure why, but He knows and that is good enough for me! He is always faithful. So, many people who
have had miscarriages wait to tell the masses of their little blessing and that is perfectly okay! In fact, the Hubs and I had conversations and prayers over what to do. Who do we tell? When? What about the boys? Well, of course we were going to tell our parents, but what about the rest? I knew of a few select people that I definitely wanted to know because I coveted their prayers. I have friends who I could call at any time of the day or night with a prayer request and they would drop everything they were doing to pray for me. Oh, how thankful I am for them! But as we talked it through, my wonderful man said, "Crystal, let's just trust God." Yes, trust Him. So we are. We want our boys to hear our prayers and to see our trust. We want our boys to know that we aren't afraid of what might happen, whether it does or not, but that ultimately it's in God's hands and we trust Him to the fullest.  I think of Ann Voskamp and how she often speaks of living with an open hand, not a closed fist. Take what He gives, for He is always good. That's not always easy, but it's how I want to live.

"Open-handed living is the only way to take God's hand." ~ Ann Voskamp.

"For I am the Lord who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13

That doesn't mean that fear doesn't want to creep up. It does. So, pray for me. I am so grateful for those who I know are already lifting me and this sweet baby up. That is really the only other reason we wanted to go ahead and tell everyone, especially our church family. We want their prayers! And we know they pray! I am confident they will pray for us during this pregnancy and I am confident that if something were to happen, they would be there to pray and encourage us as well. We need our church family and I would do the same for each one of them. We really are so blessed!

I do want to say a special thank you to those of you who have prayed for me during this past year. Many of you have been so sweet to lift us up and help us pray for a baby. You've encouraged me so much! Please keep the prayers coming!

 I love the LORD, because he has heard
  my voice and my pleas for mercy.
 Because he inclined his ear to me,
  therefore I will call on him as long as I live.
Psalm 116:1-2

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Jessica said...

Oh crystal I am so very happy for your growing family! My prayers are with you for peace and a healthy pregnancy.

Renda said...

Congrats blog friend ! I will be praying for protection of this sweet little one. Blessings !

Holly said...

I hope everything is still going well and that the move went smoothly (as smoothly as moving when you're pregnant and have 2 littles CAN go).