Wednesday, January 5, 2011

My Thorn

Around the blogging community that are tons of posts up about the new year.. goals, resolutions, or the boycott of the two. I don't do resolutions but I have been thinking the past week of things that I would like to see changed. Things I want to become new.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 1 Corinthians 5:17

The new has come. And I want more new.

I want to love more. I want to love those closest to me more. I want to love strangers more. I want to be an extension of love.

But to do that, I must work on my fear. I struggle... I wrestle with fear. It is crippling. Some times are worse than others. But all times it is present.

Maybe one day I'll share more because I know I'm not alone. But I will share, this fear is greater than normal day to day worries or fear that comes from normal anxious moments in life. It is a thorn in my flesh.

My hope:

This fear is not greater than my God. And this fear did not come from Him.

"for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." 2 Timothy 1:7

We are all weak, but His power is made perfect in our weakness.

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Molly Flanagan said...

hey crystal! do you already read the girltalk blog? they recently finished up a series on fear. it was wonderful.
i don't set new years resolutions either. when it comes to resolutions, i feel like everyday is new years. haha! xoxo

Christine said...

My heart goes out to you, Crystal. My name is Christine and I am a homeschooling mom of 2 who has been walking with Jesus for 20 years and I too know the "fear (that)is greater than normal day to day worries or fear that comes from normal anxious moments in life"...I too have a "thorn in my flesh." I'm liftin you up to our Shepherd today. If you should ever want to to talk ALSO, I just reread Hinds' Feet on High Places - the main character Much-Afraid!! I was so encouraged by this - you may want to give it a read!